So today is day 1.
Over the weekend to get ready I bought a new pair of sneakers after doing a ton of research and finding out that I supinate or underpronate. My feet roll to the outside edge when I walk causing all kinds of pain. I jumped feet first, no pun intended, into the internets and found what type of sneakers would be best for me and ended up with a pair of Nike Air Max.
Also, my husband and I brought our treadmill up from the basement and it is now prominently displayed in our teeny tiny family room. A sacrifice of appearance to be sure, but in a year and a half, not once did I go down to our basement to use it. I walked on it last night for the first time.
That being said, I could only do 10 minutes. I got off of it, both calves immediately cramped despite stretching and my husband came over and rubbed them. And then I cried. How did I ever get to this point?
I’ve asked myself that so many times and it makes me feel horrible. It makes me angry at myself and it makes me dislike myself so intensely because nobody did this to me but me. So I’ve decided that question is off the table. Starting today, Day 1, I will never ask that of myself again.
The past is the past and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’m moving forward. Positively. Oh, I know it’s not going to be easy and there will be times that I hate it. But I’m doing it.
This morning I parked in the farthest spot from my office and walked. It wasn’t a huge difference, but it was maybe a tenth of a mile instead of 30 feet. And this morning? No TastyKake for breakfast. I had half a peanut butter sandwich on whole wheat bread and I have the first of 4 16oz cups of water on my desk.
I’ll get there. I’m ready for it.
Amy
Losing It 
January 18, 2010 at 7:02 pm |
Best of luck!! I totally understand the crying part. Keep going… 🙂
January 19, 2010 at 2:40 am |
The trick to sticking with something, the discipline trick to sticking with something, is to pick something you like to do when you get home, that you usually do when you get home, and make a firm rule: no this, until I’ve finished my daily THAT.
I have no idea if that is something that works for others, in terms of a trick. It works very well for me! It’s a matter of treating it seriously, even to the point of if you forget about the rule, and you start doing this – the second you realize, you immediately stop. And you go do THAT.
Trust me: if you let yourself say “oh, well, too late – I’ve already started this, rule’s broken for today, might as well pick it up tomorrow” – no good. You can’t go so easy on it. But once you’ve made up your mind to be a real dick about it (so to speak), it really turns surprisingly easy, surprisingly fast!
Whether with my trick or with no trick at all – I wish you luck and more importantly, success and good health.
January 19, 2010 at 2:41 am |
Oh yes, I meant to say: nice, understated, clean classy template. Focused and attractive.
January 19, 2010 at 8:52 am |
Thanks, Belle! And Joe, you too. I have kind of implemented that already. I have a Netbook, it’s what I do all of my evening posting on. The checking of the email, the reading of the blogs I follow and I don’t even look at it sitting on the table until I’ve been on the ‘mill.
Also, having two dogs that are alone all day they crave and need attention and love in the evening and aside from feeding them I don’t spend any time with them, also, until I’ve been on the ‘mill. So I know I’ll get on it because I’m certainly not going to deprive my precious pups of an evening of attention. It’s working well so far!
Thanks, again, guys. I hope you keep visiting!!